I have this problem when I read a book that I completely transform into that world and experience temporary depression and longing for that life; even the sad ones.
The same thing happens with movies, but not necessarily that I want that exact life, but the cinematography and picturesque imagery; I want to see that. I want my life to include those moments of awe but it never seems to be the same. Things are always better in movies.
Well, undoubtedly things are always better in movies. When does a boy ever show up at your house in the middle of the night and appologise? Usually a phone call is the sweetest gesture.
All those romantic things like walking on the beach, 'running away', it's never the same.
I recently came across this band, The Neighbourhoods on Youtube. They're amazing. And now they music videos and the lyrics are causing the same affect on me. I long for that life that they sing about and show, as it represents youth or rebellion and I feel like I'm wasting mine away.
It's like some sort of nostalgia when those moments are reinacted in my life but yet it's not the same. Perhaps it's dissappointment for the high expectations and then maybe I deserve it for having such unrealistic high expectations.
And I can't help but feel I will never be satisfied with my life because it's not like a music video. Or maybe I need to stop over thinking it and merely get lost in all the moments I have. Yes.
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